How does one grieve?

How does one grieve?

You grieve in the morning, as the suns rays only just pierce the morning clouds
You grieve at night, when all is done and you sit and stare into the darkness and stillness of the night

You grieve when you find yourself alone, in your house, in the car, on the lawn, by the waterfront
You grieve silently in bed, and you try to sob carefully so that the bed does not rock your partner awake

You grieve suddenly, like a skipped heartbeat when you see an animated car crash on TV
When someone mentions a memory or her name

You grieve when you glimpse your loved ones grief…because you know you can not help them
You grieve when its raining, because rain does that, like a cloud over your head

You grieve when its sunny, because the sunshine reminds you so much of those happier days..never to be enjoyed again

You grieve when you think about hospitals, and their sterility and their machinery, and their inability to make miracles happen

You grieve at church, because you know theres a lesson somewhere that’s meant to be learnt but you resist it so much because it hurts

You grieve into the wind, because somehow you feel that wind takes things from you and you think it might take some of your pain

You grieve when your life stops, your chores a done, people are spoken to, things are prepared for the next moment, and suddenly, a gap in your time has left you with nothing to do…but realise that when all else is done, your grief is still there

Still hung heavy in your heartLike a parasite, that you don’t want there but you have learnt to co-exist
You grieve, you grieve, you grieve